pain

so, for the first time in my life, i've been experiencing people not accepting my mental illness. my family dr here that i went to see, when i told him i was borderline, he asked if i was sure b/c "don't borderlines not care for anybody but themselves? if you are, should a career in psychology really be what you should be doing?" and then, i asked a friend for advice on a dr to see in anchorage. he knows about by bpd and said he'd ask a clinician friend. the friend said he didn't know of anyone but suggested some therapists and then told him not to be my friend b/c i'm borderline. "borderlines are basically, 'i hate you, don't leave me' which is actually the title of a book about bpd." i guess i always knew there was a stigma over mental illness, but have never experienced it, and certainly didn't expect it from medical professionals! i literally cried over being judged for something i have not on who i am.

also, i had TACT-2 training today. the physical training day. and it caused my SI-joint dysfunction to act up and i ended up leaving early, in tears, to go to the chiropractor. he said i had a pretty bad torqued hip and he fixed it but has me coming back tomorrow. stupid hip. i have to ice it every hour for 15 minutes. it hurts.

migraine

so, i think it's the lack of humidity, because i think i'm about at sea level, but i keep getting these awful migraines! i'm at home sick today because of it. i hope i feel better soon.