job

so the job that i was told i definitely unequevically have, i don't. i called to follow up because i hadn't heard when my training was supposed to be, and she said, the school board decided since i'm a junior and have less flexibility with my schedule, they won't hire me. they went with an education major. like an education major will do better with a kid with autism than a psychology major. i'm so frustrated. and i cried, of course, because now i not only don't have a job, i don't have any job possibilities. i'm filling out job applications right now. hopefully SOMEONE will hire me. i'm so upset, and i don't know how i'm going to pay bills, and rent, and everything. i'm just at a loss. please Lord guide me, help open doors for me. i'm on my own and so far, i'm not making it. please help.

roomate

my roomate, Robin, really doesn't like me. she's super pissed. did i tell you about the cat fiasco? she apparently is freaked out by my cat. so she tells me to keep my door shut when i'm not home. well, it's not fair to CJ to keep him locked up in the smallest room in the house. well she gets all fired up and talks about how she paid the deposit on the trailer and yadadadada. well, she never asked me to pay part of the deposit when i moved in. we each have our own seperate leases so the trailer is just as much mine as it is hers. so if i want my cat to be able to wander around the living room too, it's none of her affair. he doesn't bother anyone, like he does if he's shut up. if he's shut up he cries until i get home. if her dog is out CJ avoids him like the plague, so it's not anything about the dog. and most of the time he stays in my room. but if i'm gone all day long, i'd like him to have the option of prowling. so i keep my door open despite Robin. not to spite her, but in spite of her. i really don't want bad blood amongst us roomates, but CJ is more important to me. so...that was a few days ago. i haven't seen her since. she hasn't been staying here much since then. so yesterday she texts me about the power bill. i owe 61$. well, i text her today and ask if she took into account that i've only been here 2/3 of the month, so shouldn't it be 40$ that i owe? she texts me back "whatever, i don't care." so...apparently she's done with it. i really hate that she feels this way. but i'm living in the smallest room in the trailer, and i mean it's tiny. it's half the size (if not less) of the other bedrooms. so if i had a bigger bedroom, maybe i would shut my door. but it's really not fair to CJ, and Mary Helen agrees. she has no problem with it. i just hate that all this is happening and that Robin feels bad.

built a desk

so, i've been trying to enter blogs the past few days but my internet hates me. well, the fact that it's not really my internet, i'm stealing it, may have something to do with it. ok. well, it's late and i'm....well....not tired. but i should be. so i'm gonna go to bed.

Chi Alpha

i had the best night! but it's midnight so i'll have to tell you tomorrow.

lately

so...haven't written in a few days. well...this one's gonna be short. i'm exhausted. school is gonna be crazy this year. i dunno how i'm gonna do it. i'm just so tired after four classes MWF! well, F i only have 3. but still. and fortunately i have a sign class on TR so i can get in some practice. but it's supposed to be about interpreting not sign.

i made a friend today. and found an old acquaintance. i ran into a guy i had Chemistry w/ at TSUM and we swapped numbers b/c neither of us knows anybody, and i made a friend with a girl named Amberli in my ASL class.

i went to wesley foundation tonight...it left quite a lot to be desired. i mean...it was good for what it was...i guess...but it wasn't all that. but the bible study was ok. but there was one guy there that was a knowitall. and i guess he should be, he's looking to be an episcopal priest. but still, he like...shut everyone down. even the pastor. i dunno. i'm going to Chi Alpha tomorrow night though for worship. hopefully it will be better. because i thought with Troy being a college town there would be more fellowship that i was looking for. maybe it was just hopeful thinking and i should've moved to birmingham instead. but after this is all over i'll be in colorado again so it will be okay.

i guess i've sort of lost my desperation high. i wish i hadn't. maybe i'll find it again at en fuego this weekend. *yay* barlowgirl!

roomates

so i find out friday night that Mary Helen's dad has found her a job in North Carolina. so if she decides to take it, she'll be moving sometime soon. and Robin just posted a note on facebook where she's looking for someone to replace her on the lease. so basically, i move in and they move out. makes me feel great. i guess if i can try if she or mary helen leaves i'll try to take their lease instead of the one that i'm in so i can have a bigger room. although...i kinda like my room. my smaller room will stay less dirty. who knows. i guess we'll just have to see how it goes.

i went to "church" at Wesley Foundation. it was all liturgy and stuff. we had communion and sang hymns out of the Methodist Hymnal....there were only like 10 people there. i won't be going back. i will try their wednesday night service though. it's supposed to be contemporary. we'll see.

todaytoday

so, i'm bored today. i slept most of yesterday, i have church tonight. i went to a movie friday night with mary helen. we went and saw tropic thunder. which was so bad it was almost good. but not quite. it had it's funny moments. and good cameos. it made fun of people with learning disabilities and developmental disabilities. i almost walked out. if i had been alone i would have. the people in front of us did. after a particularly awful display of cuss words, they left. but it was nice to go out and have someone to hang out with. have i told you about my roomates? they're both beautiful and skinny and nice. they both have guys (technically only Robin's guy is her "boyfriend") and they're both so friggin happy. makes me sick. not really. makes me jealous. but i have the best pet. CJ is the best. better than those DOGS. lol. although both of their dogs are really sweet. they're puppies though so they're rambunctious. so, those are about all the thoughts i have for the day. it's cold so i'm gonna crawl back in bed under the covers and do what i've been doing all day....reading textbooks. funfunfun.